So I haven’t done this in a LONG time. I opened the box with what was left of you and me. I saw a note you wrote me that said “you are the most important thing in my life…I love you more and more babe”. I smiled trying to be strong but I failed. I broke down yet again. Till this day I can’t understand why I was never enough for you. Why did you look for someone when I offered you everything. What hurts is I never got the answers I think I deserved. The answers I need to close the chapter of you and I.

So today wasn’t such a good day for my family. My aunt was diagnosed with terminal cancer about a month ago. They couldn’t start her on chemo because she had a very bad infection. Today her doctor told her there is nothing that can be done. She is at stage 4…5 is as far as cancer patients go. I broke down a bit but I know we must be strong as a family. I held back on so many tears that I know are still here. It sadness me to think that I will be losing my aunt in a mater of weeks even days. It’s times like this that remind me that our life isn’t guaranteed. One day your fine and the next your gone. It sickens me to think that some people are fighting for their lives yet others lose purpose of theirs and just like that they take it away. It’s not fair. My aunt is a good person. I’ve been raised to believe that God promises us a better future but it’s times like these that make it seem impossible to believe it. But my family and I will count on Him for the strength and support we will need during this difficult time.

En tiempos como estos solo queda orarle a Jehová.

Goodnight.

Parece extraño tener a otra persona cuando yo estoy pensando en ti
En cada beso mi alma me traiciona porque yo estoy pensando en ti
Como desistir si el corazón decide y yo no si no eres para mí que mueran las estrellas y que caigan sobre mí

Beso sus labios y me saben a ti
Estando con el quiero tu nombre decir
Como resistir si es tanto lo que duele
El veneno de tu amor

Parece extraño que rodeándome en sus brazos yo solo siento tu calor
Cierro los ojos y siento que lo engaño porque no es suyo mi amor
Si no eres para mí sal de mis pensamientos y ya déjame vivir

Beso sus labios y me saben a ti
Estando con el quiero tu nombre decir
Como resistir si es tanto lo que duele
El veneno de tu amor

Como resistir…

Beso sus labios y me saben a ti
Estando con el quiero tu nombre decir
Como resistir si es tanto lo que duele
El veneno de tu amor

💔

You played me so well I didn’t notice when the floor fell from underneath my feet I thought we were floating…

For you.

This is going to sound bad but I don’t really feel the need to pray but right now I do. I need to make sure this is the right decision. I need to know I’m ready for this because he knows I’m scared to death. I leave it all in your hands.